That sucks, Stuffy. But you're on the right track by opening up and being honest with people. It's too easy to get defensive and retreat into ourselves, or go to our coping mechanisms (something I'm very guilty of) but by talking to people and letting them know how you're doing you'll eventually stumble on the people who are in the right situation to look out for you. In turn there'll be someone you pass the care onto when you're ready.
It's really, really hard to do that constantly, but people do look out for others. And people forgive the bad days and the missteps if you've a good heart, which is definitely true for you. It's totally normal to be a cranky bollocks, or down in the dumps one moment and the next day you feel good. Sometimes it's necessary to lean into the world is a shithead stuff just to get it out of you, then you feel a little freer and things come easier. So whinge and moan on here, more people should. It's cathartic. And let people know how you're doing.
I did that in that thread that got deleted and it pissed me off that my post is gone now as I was pretty open and honest about things. That's my vent, but c'est la vie. It's good to get things off your chest. And at other times you don't even need to try, you just need to let people help you. By being true about how you are people will know how to help you. And that's what you're doing. You're on the way.
